Monday, August 19, 2013

Stop Trying. Keep Living

“This is very important - to take leisure time. Pace is the essence. Without stopping entirely and doing nothing at all for great periods, you're gonna lose everything...just to do nothing at all, very, very important. And how many people do this in modern society? Very few. That's why they're all totally mad, frustrated, angry and hateful.”
Charles Bukowski

While writing all these blog posts and afterwards I tried my best not to lose the habits I have had and keep challenging myself in different areas of my interests. I tried to get as far as I could, but honestly, the trials hardly ever worked out. Even the ideas that came to me to write a blog post are not coming when I think about them, but only when I let go of thinking too much about writing. Trying new things will make older ones lack the concentration and they gradually will have a lesser impact on you. You will look for new changes, because you think it's time to have adventure, which is quite normal. I emphasize the word "quite" here, because it's very common to us, the people to look for reforms in our lives and to know if we're better at something. We think that we keep trying, but eventually things start to try us. And that's the time of a big red sign of STOP. When we see that things don't work out at all and that we actually have more problems than before, we get down, frustrated and depressed. We can't handle so many problems and that's why we stop. This action of non-action (which is called "wu-wei" in Taoism) is really beautiful. Much more beautiful than you could ever imagine. The moment of depression means that you tried or thought too much and brain suddenly gives up. Your brain says: "Everything is so meaningless" or maybe "I am a loser. I can't get anything done. I don't even know what to do with my life".

Saturday, August 3, 2013

Meditations on Sunset

      I love watching sunset. It actually does not remind me of death or some kind of completion. For me it is the reminding beauty of nature in a flash that reminds us of itself by its colors and still it has no goal of completing itself or showing it to us.  
     While observing the sun I found out that act of watching itself is like living the present moment. Sunset is not an object. It is a process of sun setting down. And everything around becomes pinkish-orange-red-purple color and clouds around reflect the light coming from the sun as all the trees, stones, buildings, windows, waters. However when you think of watching, you start looking at the clouds, the sun, then at the sky and then to trees, people, everything you see around just to shoot the moment. Like an artist drawing naked lying beauty you look at all the details of an object. Because you become aware that there are actually lots of things to watch at and it is going to end soon in a very short time. 
     Sun is setting down very fast. You think you have a little time. Without promising yourself tomorrow’s sunset you become fully aware of a little time around. The moment of clarification. Reminding moment. You got what you could. Thinking of it only made everything complicated. You don’t know what to look at. But only when you understand that there is nothing to look for to look at you start watching. Watching for the sake of watching. Living for the sake of living. Nothing else. Dancing to the rhythms of nature around without stopping. You will fall. Yes, falling is another part of dancing.